![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
navelgazedThings have been tough. I did find a new job after my old one unceremoniously kicked me out, but it has been a bumpy ride getting used to things at the new job. And, honestly, I don't like it as much as the last one. With my partner also job searching right now money is tight, and both of us are feeling the strain of the last 6 months. I think I've run into full-force burnout. My fatigue and pain is worse, I hardly have the energy to do necessary tasks and frankly after I get home most days I'm a bit of a useless lump. I'm trying to rest and recharge my batteries as much as I can, but due to the Way That I Am, it's pretty difficult for me to do that.
Still, I'm trying. And I do have new years goals. One, I am trying to lose weight again and counting calories, although I'm aiming for a slow loss and my calorie 'deficit' is still higher than the recommended daily caloric intake. I am also in general not doing it through really strict restriction and wildly reformulating my diet like I have in the past. Mostly, I'm trying to change the kinds of food I eat and consume more fruits, veggies, and focus on protein and fiber intake while not necessarily 'reducing' carbs--although that will happen if I eat more protein and fiber rich snacks and meals. In general my gut health has been on a really steep decline the last year or so, getting really bad in the last few months. I have a specialist appointment set up to see what's going on. But I figured reducing the amount of less healthy snacks and trying to fill up on stuff that will keep me regular and play nice with my lack of gall bladder will probably help more than hurt. As I get older I need to start eating healthier for my long term health, anyway, so that's how I'm looking at it.
I also want to move more, which I haven't been doing...great at so far. But once my stomach issues calm down, hopefully I'll have more energy and feel more confident going walking outside. I want to walk my dog more as much as walks with her are draining, I know it's a really good thing to be able to move more and get outside to get fresh air, if not sun at this time of year. I also want to get into stepmania again.
One more goal this year is to read more. I've set a goal of 20 books which seems modest, but I haven't read more than 5 a year since college. I have a library card and I want to get inspired again. I know reading will only help me write better, and by God do I need help feeling inspired to write.
On this blog I may get back into my monthly roundups, although in 2025 there were months I didn't produce much of anything. Hopefully this year I can get back on the train of writing and drawing.
Still, I'm trying. And I do have new years goals. One, I am trying to lose weight again and counting calories, although I'm aiming for a slow loss and my calorie 'deficit' is still higher than the recommended daily caloric intake. I am also in general not doing it through really strict restriction and wildly reformulating my diet like I have in the past. Mostly, I'm trying to change the kinds of food I eat and consume more fruits, veggies, and focus on protein and fiber intake while not necessarily 'reducing' carbs--although that will happen if I eat more protein and fiber rich snacks and meals. In general my gut health has been on a really steep decline the last year or so, getting really bad in the last few months. I have a specialist appointment set up to see what's going on. But I figured reducing the amount of less healthy snacks and trying to fill up on stuff that will keep me regular and play nice with my lack of gall bladder will probably help more than hurt. As I get older I need to start eating healthier for my long term health, anyway, so that's how I'm looking at it.
I also want to move more, which I haven't been doing...great at so far. But once my stomach issues calm down, hopefully I'll have more energy and feel more confident going walking outside. I want to walk my dog more as much as walks with her are draining, I know it's a really good thing to be able to move more and get outside to get fresh air, if not sun at this time of year. I also want to get into stepmania again.
One more goal this year is to read more. I've set a goal of 20 books which seems modest, but I haven't read more than 5 a year since college. I have a library card and I want to get inspired again. I know reading will only help me write better, and by God do I need help feeling inspired to write.
On this blog I may get back into my monthly roundups, although in 2025 there were months I didn't produce much of anything. Hopefully this year I can get back on the train of writing and drawing.
